This morning we said goodbye to Dan once again for a 6 month deployment. These goodbyes never get easier. I swore I was going to remain strong for the children, but as we are approaching the base a little after 6am I can feel the tears gently rolling down my cheeks and the knot in my stomach slowly rising up. Dan reaches over and clasps my hand to comfort me. I just keep looking forward as we approach the pier; I am afraid that if I make eye contact that I will burst into tears. I smile at the sound of Kaitlyn's giggles and chattering. I wipe the tears away and take a deep breath then get Kaitlyn out of her car seat so Dan can hold her once before heading to the ship. She is full of squeals and giggles which puts smiles on both our faces. We all exchange hugs and kisses before watching Dan disappear into the sheet of mist and fog on the dark pier.
We kept with our tradition after dropping Dan off for underways and had breakfast at McDonalds. Kaitlyn and Alex were in great moods and chowed down as they bounced and swayed to the unusually loud music. This helped break up my somber mood. We left McDonalds for a play date with one of Alex's friends. This was probably the best medicine for both of us; it took our minds off of his departure.
Dan was able to call this evening during the children's story time; both of them were super excited! Alex wanted to know when he was coming home and if we could stay the night on the ship; I don't think he quite comprehends everything yet. As we talk I find myself tearing up again. I try to wipe them away before Alex turns and sees them, but he turned around too quickly. Alex says "what's wrong Mommy?", I say "Mommy just misses Daddy", Alex says "it's alright Mommy" and he gives me a big kiss on the cheek. He is such a sweet little boy!
I know in the next few days things will get easier and we will get in a routine, but there will always be an empty void till he returns. They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder; I guess this is true because it makes you realize all the things you love, appreciate, and cherish about them. It makes you realize all the little things you take for granted.
Sweetheart, I wish you and all aboard the USS Abraham Lincoln a safe and successful voyage! Come home quickly! We love you and miss you!
